*PAIN IS A BLESSING*

*PAIN HAS SOMETHING TO BUILD YOUR CHARACTER*

Let God be the driver of your life.. He knows the proper route..

Loving, on your own will, on your own choice, on your own understanding, is tiring. It only gives you pain, only makes you shed tears, and see yourself a martyr and frail in the end. Yeah, that’s all I’ve concluded seeing myself before. I have loved someone; that, I must not love at all. I say this not because, he is of no value, or not commendable to be loved. But simply because, he was not right for me, not the one that my God definitely wants for me. I was in High school during that time; it was not easy, so hard, and stiff to take the risk. Knowing the possibility that you could be hurt, you could be ignored. He is not totally committed to God, but still I did, I loved him. It went good between us at first, feels right, it made me happy, but it didn’t last. We’ve only been together for a moment, for only months. Every time things were not going well on us, all I do is just to cry alone, looking my pillow soaked with tears, and crying until I fell asleep. I always forgive him when he causes me pain, even though I was hurting deeply, I still forgive and accept him again when he apologized.

There was not other girl involved, it didn’t come to that point, because he was honest and I know it. But because of distance, we got separated. He was not making a way for us to see each other, he doesn’t even send me a txt, an email or any way that can make us talk seriously. He only did again after a month and told me that life in College is busy, and many more reasons. Yet, I did understand and forgive. As time passed, he makes me overlooked, forlorn, and bleak. In other words, the efforts I was doing for him were unseen and at the same, I didn’t see efforts on his part. Those truths one day, knocked my head, and chased my heart, crying to the Lord. Where I prayed and talk to him this way,

“Lord, I’m so sorry. I became hard headed, I didn’t listen, and I made my own way. I’m sorry that I hurt you. From this day on, I’d help myself overcome all these things and I can only do it with you. I’m tired of seeing myself being hurt. Lord, have your way, I’ll wait. I’d submit to your plans. I’m here broken, and asking you to make me whole again. I would live for you and spend time focusing on what you want me to do. I promise to take care of myself for you and for the one that you would give me in proper time. My heart is now entirely yours, all my life. If he is not for me, then be it. I would trust you forever that you know what’s best. Thank you very much Lord in making this, a way for me to learn, to tell that you love me dearly, I love you.”

It was the beginning of maturity, when I was hurt. God had taught me that pain has always an accurate purpose. That it is something we don’t want to undergo, we ignore and let it pass, but behind it, is a huge and wonderful blessing. We just have to look at the positive side. It could be the turning point of your life where you could know him as its finest, at a very personal way. You just have to listen, to surrender and admit to yourself that you can never do anything alone effectively, all on your own. Because you need the Lord, you need him most.

I learned a lot from that episode of my life. I learned to value myself, especially the love that God is generously giving me. I cherished him more and the most significant thing is, I learned to obey and trust him, took away the doubts that I once had. And I very well understood the importance why your partner should be a Christian, a follower of Christ, a fully surrendered one. God wants someone for you that could love him, more than he will for you. Someone he knows could love and take good care of you, like how a person is protecting a precious gift given by the one he loves. I hope you get my point.
You don’t need to hurry, you are very special. God has his own way of telling you when, he has the perfect timing. If you still study and you have something more to prioritize, make it first and put God on top. He alone deserves your commitment, your time and your love. HE KNOWS EVERYTHING, EVEN THE DEEPEST PART OF YOUR HEART. TRUST AND OBEY HIM, SEEK AND KNOW HIM MORE AND HE WILL LOVINGLY GIVE YOU THE BEST.^^.

BUT SEEK YE FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS; AND ALL THESE THINGS SHALL BE ADDED UNTO YOU. MATTHEW 6:33